Demi Lovato didn’t realize that “explosive” moments during her time as a child actress and singer would have a negative impact on her mental health.

Lovato, co-director and contributor to new Hulu documentary Child starspoke about the challenges of early fame in a thoughtful part of the film. “I didn’t know it would have such a negative impact on my mental health,” said the 32-year-old (as reported by People ). “And unfortunately, sometimes that looks explosive, like an incident where you hit your backup dancer on an airplane or take a heroin overdose.”

In 2010, Lovato was touring with the Jonas Brothers when they physically attacked her former backup dancer Alex Welch on a plane. The incident prompted Lovato to enter rehab, which was documented in her 2012 documentary. Demi Lovato: Stay strongBut a bout of drug addiction ruined Lovato’s career, as in 2018 the two suffered an overdose after taking a near-fatal mixture of heroin and fentanyl. During her hospital stay, Lovato suffered three strokes and a heart attack.

During production Child starLovato expressed that the project was her attempt to apologize for her destructive past.

“Speaking to people who knew me at a different time in my life was challenging because I wanted to apologize for my behavior,” said the “Confident” singer. “I wasn’t the nicest person to work with at times because I was struggling so much inside and under a lot of pressure.”

Among those in Child star are Raven-Symoné and Alyson Stoner, who have seen Lovato at her worst in both acting projects.

Also in Child starnow available to stream on Hulu are Drew Barrymore, JoJo Siwa, Kenan Thompson and Christina Ricci, all of whom rose to fame as children.

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